It's only 23 days until our departure for the marathon in Switzerland. The sad news is I'm sitting on my couch recovering from my knee surgery I had done last Thursday. I haven't lost sight of the full marathon just yet but the journey to get there looks alittle different now. I definitely won't be "running" anything but I'm hopeful to be able to walk something. I'm counting on my stubborness and my sheer determination to get me to the start line of one of the races.
The next week is pretty low key, I have some exercises that the Surgeon gave me to do post op and I see him again Oct 9th, so I'm hoping to get some answers then. The emails, facebook messages, visits and phone calls of support have all been very welcoming. I have the most amazing family, friends and arth-kicker supporters and everyone is an important part of this journey. I couldn't do it without any of them.
This Friday is our "send off" party for the Alberta Team and it's going to be great. Alot of postive energy and excitement about the trip! :-) We would love to have some of our supporters there so feel free to join us. We are going to be at "Wurst" Friday night at 5pm across from the Tech shop downtown.
So there won't be much to blog over the next few days unless you want to hear about me complaining about being bored and frustrated that I can't do what I want to do..lol!!!
Thanks again to everyone for all their support!
Monday, October 1, 2012
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Between Me, Myself and I ....
This is the song I will have on my IPOD to do the 42k and listen to it over and over because the only person I need to convince right now is myself!
I had my MRI on my knee today so hopefully I will have some answers tomorrow!
Friday, September 14, 2012
Broken Spirit
I’m not even sure where to start with this post. It’s been a brutal week and
after 3 days I am finally able to actually write about what has been going on. I
have felt like my body is slowly letting me down and breaking and I have been
trying my hardest to keep my spirits up. My mind is definitely not in the same
space as my body. It’s weird because why should I be so surprised to find
myself in this situation??? I was clearly pushing my body, training with
bootcamp, run/walk training 4-5 tiimes a week and I shouldn’t be surprised it
has come to a screeching hault. On Monday I set out to do 24km but at the 21k
mark my knees couldn’t take anymore. I called hubby to come and get me off my
route and frustrated as ever I headed home. I knew I was in pain but that’s
really nothing new for me, I always have some pain but this time the pain took
hold of my spirit and mentally I broke down.
I guess I needed a voice of reason because a very good friend of mine decided it was time to tell it like it is! That was a hard conversation to hear because I knew it was all true and that I would have to slow things down but it was a breaking point for me. I cried and I wasn’t sure why I was crying, was it because I was in so much physical pain or was it the mental pain I was feeling because I felt like I was failing at what I set out to do. Right now the end is so close yet so far away. I found a quote by -Vince Lombardi, I have no idea who he is..lol but the quote was so fitting for what I am feeling right now … “The harder you work, the harder it is to surrender! “ I need to complete this journey one way or another and so I have to face the fact that I may have to walk another entire marathon. I didn’t want to walk the entire thing but the truth is, I don’t think at this point there is any possible way I can run anymore. So time to pysche myself up to be out on the course for 8 hours yet again! Thank goodness my teamie Tracy will be there this time to walk it with me, it won’t be as lonely as the last marathon I did!
So for now I am on limited activity as I try and get some of the swelling and inflammation down in my knee. I’m slowly getting the feeling back in my foot. I guess with so much swelling it’s pushing on the nerves and causing the numbness and tingling. I have seen my family Dr who has put in a referral to see my surgeon that did my previous knee surgeries but I have no idea how long it’s going to take to get in and see him. It doesn’t really matter anyway because seeing him isn’t going to change the fact that I can’t run. I’m actually afraid to see him before the marathon because I’m scared to death he might say I can’t even walk it and that would completely devastate me.
A friend posted a picture on facebook about being Successful and under the picture of the straightline it says “what people think it looks like” and then under the picture of the very twisted squiggly line it says “what it really looks like!” It is soooo true and I can’t thank my friends and family enough right now as they support me through that squiggly line!
I guess I needed a voice of reason because a very good friend of mine decided it was time to tell it like it is! That was a hard conversation to hear because I knew it was all true and that I would have to slow things down but it was a breaking point for me. I cried and I wasn’t sure why I was crying, was it because I was in so much physical pain or was it the mental pain I was feeling because I felt like I was failing at what I set out to do. Right now the end is so close yet so far away. I found a quote by -Vince Lombardi, I have no idea who he is..lol but the quote was so fitting for what I am feeling right now … “The harder you work, the harder it is to surrender! “ I need to complete this journey one way or another and so I have to face the fact that I may have to walk another entire marathon. I didn’t want to walk the entire thing but the truth is, I don’t think at this point there is any possible way I can run anymore. So time to pysche myself up to be out on the course for 8 hours yet again! Thank goodness my teamie Tracy will be there this time to walk it with me, it won’t be as lonely as the last marathon I did!
So for now I am on limited activity as I try and get some of the swelling and inflammation down in my knee. I’m slowly getting the feeling back in my foot. I guess with so much swelling it’s pushing on the nerves and causing the numbness and tingling. I have seen my family Dr who has put in a referral to see my surgeon that did my previous knee surgeries but I have no idea how long it’s going to take to get in and see him. It doesn’t really matter anyway because seeing him isn’t going to change the fact that I can’t run. I’m actually afraid to see him before the marathon because I’m scared to death he might say I can’t even walk it and that would completely devastate me.
A friend posted a picture on facebook about being Successful and under the picture of the straightline it says “what people think it looks like” and then under the picture of the very twisted squiggly line it says “what it really looks like!” It is soooo true and I can’t thank my friends and family enough right now as they support me through that squiggly line!
Saturday, September 8, 2012
TV interview
Check out the link from my TV interview on Global this morning for Arthritis
Awareness month! I'm so not good being on TV ... I was a nervous wreck and my
heart was pounding out of my chest! (You'll see it ...lol) I love telling people
about our cause and Joints in Motion.. Just NOT on TV..lol! Watching the video
is really hard and my heart starts to beat out of my chest just watchig it!! But
it's all for a good cause so if one person that has Arthritis signs up to do a
marathon because I inspired them, that's awesome. That's exactly what I want...
to be an inspiration!
http://www.globaltvcalgary.com/video/arthritis+awareness+month/video.html?v=2277120203&p=1&s=dd#morningnews/video/special+guests
http://www.globaltvcalgary.com/video/arthritis+awareness+month/video.html?v=2277120203&p=1&s=dd#morningnews/video/special+guests
Sunday, September 2, 2012
Recovering ...
Well that sucked!!!!!!!!!! I ended up with a nasty flu/cold and have been
knocked on my butt all week. Yesterday I ventured out to do a short run, it
ended up being about 4km. I decided not to go with the group downtown because I
wasn't sure how far I could go and I knew it was going to be a slow go, so
thought it was better to just venture out on my own close to home! Today I
managed to do 14.5km and didn't collapse at the end so I would like to think I'm
on the road to recovery. :-) I so did not need that little hiccup in my
training but it is what it is and onward I go! :-) My training partner is back
from holidays so Melissa did the last 4.5km with me today! YAY only the first
10k were lonely and boring...LOL! Although I have to say doing the intervals
does make the time go alittle faster. :-) So I have 2 half marathons coming up
to incorporate into my training and keep me on track! :-) I will be doing the
harvest half at the end of September and then the Okanagan half at Thanksgiving!
Only 56 days until the Lausanne Marathon ... exciting and nervous at the same
time!!
Excited that hubby has decided to be my companion on the trip to do the full marathon. He wasn't able to be there for my fist full marathon in Athens, so I'm pretty excited he's gonna be there this time. I think he's only going this time so he can keep an eye on me so I don't go and get another race tattoo like I did in Athens...LOL!!!
Will be fun! We will have a supporter there to hold up our Arth-Kickers banner when we all cross the finish line!! :-) I wonder if he will wear a pink Arth-Kicker team shirt too...LMAO!!! Guess I might have to make him his own "Arth-Kicker Supporter" shirt!!
Countdown: 27 days to harvest half marathon in Calgary ... 35 days to Okanagan half marathon in Kelowna ... 56 days to Luasanne full marathon in Switzerland!! As one of my best friends would say "Giddy Up" !! :-)
Excited that hubby has decided to be my companion on the trip to do the full marathon. He wasn't able to be there for my fist full marathon in Athens, so I'm pretty excited he's gonna be there this time. I think he's only going this time so he can keep an eye on me so I don't go and get another race tattoo like I did in Athens...LOL!!!
Will be fun! We will have a supporter there to hold up our Arth-Kickers banner when we all cross the finish line!! :-) I wonder if he will wear a pink Arth-Kicker team shirt too...LMAO!!! Guess I might have to make him his own "Arth-Kicker Supporter" shirt!!
Countdown: 27 days to harvest half marathon in Calgary ... 35 days to Okanagan half marathon in Kelowna ... 56 days to Luasanne full marathon in Switzerland!! As one of my best friends would say "Giddy Up" !! :-)
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Half Marathon-Sunday Morning!
Tonight I did my last 6km (run for 1min/walk for 1min). This week I joined
John our Joints in Motion Trainer, his wife Joy and the rest of the crew for 2
training runs on Tues and Thurs. They were short quick 6km runs and I felt
really good during and after. (Thank god otherwise I would be really worried
about doing this half if I felt like crap after only 6k..lol) It was nice to be
out with a group. I always enjoy chatting and sharing my story with the other
runners. The more people I have cheering me on the easier it is for me to keep
going and finish. John set up my running watch for me to do 1/1 intervals so it
will beep after each minute and now I don't have to keep looking at my watch
wondering if the minute is up yet...lol! It set it up for 99 reps which is 3
hours and 20minutes, so that is my goal. :-) The last time I did this race I
finished it in 3 hours and 37 minutes and that was walking the entire race. So
let's see what I can do this weekend. It really is just a practise run for my
run/walk training so I can see where I am in order to finish the full marathon
in Oct doing a run/walk. My team mate Heather will running it as well, the great
news is she's faster and will finish before me and will be there to cheer me
over the finish line with my family. :-)
Saturday night my 2 youngest kids are registered to do the Kids' run and my oldest son and sister Crystal will do the 5km. I love that my kids want to be so involved and do what I'm doing. Every race I have done this year they have participated in the 5km category!! (Although my 7 year old says she's only doing 5km cause she doesn't want her toenails to fall off...LOL)
Thanks John and the crew tonight at the run for all the good luck wishes, those are what push me to get through the race! :-)
Stay tuned for Sunday night's post to hear how it went!! :-)
I'm only $595 away from my fundraising goal and I have 2 weeks to raise that, so please support my half marathon on Sunday by donating to my page. How about $1 for every KM... $21. :-)
Saturday night my 2 youngest kids are registered to do the Kids' run and my oldest son and sister Crystal will do the 5km. I love that my kids want to be so involved and do what I'm doing. Every race I have done this year they have participated in the 5km category!! (Although my 7 year old says she's only doing 5km cause she doesn't want her toenails to fall off...LOL)
Thanks John and the crew tonight at the run for all the good luck wishes, those are what push me to get through the race! :-)
Stay tuned for Sunday night's post to hear how it went!! :-)
I'm only $595 away from my fundraising goal and I have 2 weeks to raise that, so please support my half marathon on Sunday by donating to my page. How about $1 for every KM... $21. :-)
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